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Just got home, we skipped the iceskating and went to the mall instead. Got something turquoise with holes in it, very uninteresting.

Don´t forget! Follow the Jackson brothers on twitter, and tune in to watch A family dynasty, new episode on Sunday! 10/9 pm on A&E. Help promote, spread the word, create the buzz, BE the buzz! Let´s help make 2010 the year of the Jacksons.

My twitter. Let´s all follow each others to help make A family dynasty bigger, and to support our beloved Jackson family.

Also, don´t forget to scroll down to read my post called "extra! extra!". It´s brilliant (no braging since it´s not about something out of my own opinion, just suspicious minds), I think everyone, fan of Michael Jackson or not, should read it. Mom thinks this whole conspiracy thing is just like the Elvis-conspiracy or the moonlanding-conspiracy - but I think there´s something to it. There sure is something that is wrong.

I luffles this pic <3  TOY, Michael.

Just about to head for the iceskating rink! Just wanted to spread the Jackson-brothers´ (Jackie, Tito, Jermaine & Marlon) message;
"New Episode Jackson Family Dynasty SUNDAY 10/9pm c on A&E! Retweet & put in your stat to keep ratings high! Thx 4 support All."
I didn´t think the show was running in Scandinavia, but a friend of mine in Norway just told me he´d seen in on some channel over there. I gotta get in touch with the Jacksons now!

By the way; do you guys have twitter? I would love to know. Here is the Jackson brothers´ mutual twitter (all except Randy). Here is my own.

I´m going iceskating with mom and Helene! Cya later, schmuckers!

By the way, I would like every single one of you (fan of Michael or not) to read my post called "extra! extra!" one post down. It´s incredibly interesting!

Goodmorning, schmucks! I´m just gonna post a little one, better hurry up, I´m going to the big town with mom, sister to meet my uncle and aunt to celebrate my birthday since they couldn´t come on the big day.
Have a nice one :)

I was just goofying around, ready to turn the computer off when I, by coincidence (I just accidentically clicked a link when I was trying to click down the page, so it was definitely a coincidence), got onto a blog called SHAMONE!.
It´s a blog that writes about all the weird stuff connected to the death of Michael Jackson.
I just found a very weird post in this blog. Do you guys know who Cassandra Gretchen-Sims is? Not? Well, she was working with Michael on the script for This Is It. She´s been working with Michael before, and according to herself, they are close friends, and she talks to him almost every day.
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She tells us she has a message from Michael. He told her, according to her (I beg you to not take any of this as facts, this is not a trustworthy person, and I won´t believe any of it until I see and hear Michael saying it), to tell us fans this:

He told me to ‘tell everyone, tell all my fans’ that the stories of his drug abuse and addiction ’sadly, are true. But I’m not dead. I’m getting stronger and drugs are behind me. I’ll never take another drug, not even an aspirin. Tell my fans I’m sorry for putting them through so much sadness and turmoil.

“‘Tell them I had to do it. I had no choice. If I had tried to do the London shows we had scheduled, I would have died for real. I thank God for helping me see the light. I will see you all next June on my world tour – the greatest tour the world has ever seen, bigger than Thriller, bigger than the Beatles and the Rolling Stones combined.’”

Gretchen-Sims declined to say where Michael is located, but in a verbal slip noted that “Eastern Europe is the safest place …” suggesting that he is – as earlier reports suggested – hiding out in Romania, Hungary or possibly even Russia, where reporters and his enemies would be hard pressed to find him.

I checked Kenny Ortega´s twitter yesterday, I went waaay back, back to September. He posted this:
"Smee: Captain, the ice is melting, the sun is out and the flowers are all in bloom.
Captain Hook: He´s back."

If there is any hidden message in this post.. it is without doubt that Michael will be back this spring. This we could connect to what Cassandra claims that Michael told her to tell us, "I will see you all next June on my world tour".
Although, Kenny O also wrote the day after the Peter Pan post, that there are never any hidden messages in his posts, and that we should never think so. I don´t want to believe him, but I can´t really seem to help to.

Another thing I reacted on.. the verbal slip about Michael´s hiding place. Who does a verbal slip, saying "Eastern Europe is the safest place.."? You don´t just say that with no reason. And that is no answer to any question. It could be the answer when they asked her where Michael was, but that answer we already know is that she can´t tell them. So I don´t know.. if I trust this. Well, I don´t. But I won´t just let it slip before my eyes. I´ll keep checking up on Cassandra, I´ll try to get in touch with her, I´ll try to make myself a better picture of her.

I tried to do this a fifteen minutes ago. I googled her to see who she really was, if she was on wikipedia or something. I didn´t get up any information on her, besides all the Michael stuff. But what I did get up - is that people seem convinced she is Michael himself.
In this interview, it doesn´t say how the interview was achieved; orally, or behind a screen.

I found a video on youtube. It´s about all the 33 clues there will be in This Is It (it was made before the premiere). In it, the maker had quoted something Cassandra Gretchen-Sims had said. She´d said, Michael had told her this; "Whoever can see the 33 clues will know the truth and the whole truth about my disappearance".

If only I could put that Cassandra in a chair of truth and really find out whether she´s actually Michael´s messenger, or just a bitch who wants attention.. If this is true. Then I am the happiest girl alive. And the most worried girl alive. What if Michael would some, very beautiful, day out that he´s alive? Imagine how the world would react. It would all be worse than it ever was. Imagine all the filthy tabloids there will be..
But I would make them go away. I would take all the trashy tabloids and burn them. And when I become a ghost, I will haunt every single one who ever said a bad word about Michael down.
He must know he´d make this world so much merrier if he would come back. Know that.

Something else Cassandra claims:

“He is monitoring the Internet and he really enjoys all the messages from his fans. He said they ‘give me strength and fill me with love. Tell them that all the love they send to me I send right back. I love my fans!’”

Gretchen-Sims says that even though she and Michael are talking “a lot and regularly,” she will not betray his confidence and discuss the subject of conversations or plans that he might have “unless and until he tells me to.”

“That might be later today, that might be tomorrow, that might be a month from now.  I’ll say more when Michael gives me the word. For now, just know that he is well and happy and getting stronger by the day.

“And he will be back. That’s a guarantee.”

Now I´ll go find that Cassandra Gretchen-Sims.

Please, come back, darling. We miss you.

This Is It will soon be out on DvD. Kenny O announced not long ago the exact date isn´t yet set, there´s only a mall (that´s been leaked). All he knows so far is that it´s due in the end of January.

I just caught myself thinking of Paris, Prince & Blanket Jackson as Wendy, Michael and John in Peter Pan.

A beautiful piece of text I found on mjfanclub.net. I´d like you to read it, and spread the word.

2009 was a year that our world-wide family suffered the unimaginable, the loss of our beloved Michael.  As a result, this holiday season wasn't quite as bright, hope-filled or joyous.  There seemed little to celebrate when we cast the eye of our imagination toward that empty chair at our communal table, missing that brilliant smile, delightful laugh and perfect voice.

Now, at the beginning of a new year as we continue to try to make sense of the senseless, find hope in what seems hopeless and gather strength for our wounded hearts, it becomes more important than ever to return to the messages that Michael Jackson brought to our world.

Love the Earth. Respect and honor our Great Mother and do what is right every day to sustain, defend and protect her.

Love and protect our children as they are the future. Enjoy their innocence and joy when they are young and help them to become gracious and graceful, peaceful and loving adults.

Remember childhood and keep the best of it with you forever.

Love, honor, respect and cherish one another.

Be generous with your love and understanding and frugal, truthful and kind with criticism.  Say it with The L-O-V-E.

Nurture your ability to create, express and imagine. Celebrate magic.

Believe in yourself no matter what it might take. Keep the faith in yourself and in one another.                           

Dance before the mirror of life with joy.

May 2010 bring us justice, strength and a renewed sense of purpose.

May Peace Be With You Always,

The MJFC Team

Just woke up, gonna fix some in the room now. Going to the movies with mom and sister later, probably gonna see "Old Dogs" I think it´s called. The one with Travolta?
Just asked Kenny Ortega why TII was filmed with cameras for IMAX theatres. Can´t wait for the answer.
Have a nice day, TOY, Michael :)

Pictures will for sure be up tonight, I swear to God :)

Smee: Captain, the ice is melting, the sun is out and the flowers are all in bloom.
Captain Hook: He's back.

I would like to give you guys a tip. It´s a video made by my dear friend Nessa. It´s hilarious, sweet, sad, happy, sexy, it´s everything. Main character; all our own Michael Joseph Jackson.
Please watch it. It´s beautiful. Especially in the end. It put waterfalls to my eyes. The This Is It smile..
I miss him so much.

Writing that headline was really weird. Really weird.
I panicked this morning, when I realized this is the last day it´ll ever be 2009. It´s not coming back. And it´s weird. I panicked, because I felt I had to write a last post in my diary, ´cause my headlines in it are always the date of the day. It´d be the last time I could ever write of 2009.

When I think of 2010 I think of three things; This is the first year without my grandmother. This is the first year without Michael. This is going to be my most successful year. Even though I can´t help to think it´s all for nothing without my grandma and Michael. But I´ll have to distract myself, ´cause if that keeps on going with everything, I´ll wind up on the street with no place to rest, no place to dress, no place to eat, no place to sleep.

I spent my New Years with my mom, my sister and a family that are all friends of us. It was good, we ate and played games and watched the fireworks. Right after we went home, mom starts work early tomorrow in the morning, so we had to go home right after, which was quite a shame, I think. The two older boys in the family, David and Simon, are effing hilarious.

Happy new year, and please make something out of it. Look yourself in the mirror and make that change, even if it´s for yourself, or for the world.
/Rebbie

Who would´ve known, the first picture I´d post 2010, would be of Michael? Heehee.

Goodmorning, world of the schmucks!
A special day is coming up! New Year´s Eve. Have a nice one, and don´t drink and drive!

Right now I´m just listening to Michael and Janet, cleaning my room a little, better go get a shower. Tonight me, my mom and my sister are going to our friends the Bäckströms to celebrate the new year and the new decade! I am overexcited over the new year - I told you I made that so far secret decision, but it´s not fully completed yet. I don´t know what to do! I wish I could write songs. But I suck at it. I always get into other songs - I always get into Billie Jean, Black or White, 2 Bad, Beat It or The Supremes´ Love don´t come easy. I´ma have to practice that.

Do you schmucks make new year´s resolutions?

By the way, I believe pictures from Xmas, my birthday and a little random ones will be up later today!

Genevieve Jackson just told me there was an earthquake in Orange County. She didn´t feel it though. I would like to feel one once, hope I will when I move to California myself. Hope no one got hurt, though.

Long for New Year´s, being spent with family and friends.

Just gonna dance a little bit more, then get knocked out listening to Rock with you on repeat. Goodnight, blog-world :)

Man, I just get so mad at the picture uploading machine! It doesn´t wanna upload certain pictures, it happens quite a lot actually. And it always strikes the best ones. Though, this one is just as good as any, and luckily enough it worked this time :D He´s just too adorable!

Now I´m gonna watch Scrubs and suck on my lollipop :)

Michael Jackson recording "We are here to change the world" for Captain Eo. He´s so sweet. Look at his sweet laugh at his own "hee hee", haha!

I already broke the visitor record, think it´s because of Sabrina´s link, thank you so much, hun, love you xoxo.

For those of you who find your way here through Sabrina (Lovely-Michael Joseph Jackson on Facebook); what she wanted you to read is my post called "we´re sending out our major love and this is our message to you", one or two posts below. Thnx for checking in, hope you stay :)

Sitting here, a little bored, listening to my azum playlist on Spotify (all Michael, heehee). Should really get ready and get out with those damned papers, buuut.. Found a little list on my dear friend Jess´ blog, though it would be kinda fun..
(I´ll answer in English though the questions are in Swedish, because I think it´ll be too fucked up otherwise)

1. Gjorde du något i år som du aldrig gjort förut? You always do new things, everyday. So this question is kinda dumb. But the biggest thing, I believe, I did new this year was probably that I made a very big decision. Though I made this decision like two days ago..
2. Höll du några av dina nyårslöften? Well, first of all, I´m not into that whole New Year´s resolution thing, because if there´s anything I wanna change about myself, I make sure I do it. Although, I do make resolutions because it´s fun, and to see if I manage to keep it. My only problem there would be the fact that I never remember the resolution of last year, and it wouldn´t help typing it down, thank you very much..
3. Blev någon/några av dina vänner föräldrar i år? People I know that I´m not that close to.
4. Dog någon som stod dig nära? Yes. Two people. And I just can´t stand it.
5. Vilka länder besökte du? Scotland! I love that country.
6. Är det något du saknat år 2009 som du vill ha år 2010? Less mourning? Perhaps.
7. Vilket datum från år 2009 kommer du alltid att minnas? 25th of June and 10th of December.
8. Vad var din största framgång 2009? That I made that decision. It contains everything I ever wanna be, an entertainer.
9. Största misstaget? I don´t often do things I regret.. Even though there are tons of people saying they never regret anything and you should never regret anything because whatever you did that you wanna regret probably gave you something in the end. They´re lying. Sure, you shouldn´t regret unneccessary things. Because I hate the feeling of regret. But what they say, is that a pedophile or a murderer shouldn´t regret what they did because those, oh, so horrible things they did, gave them something. It´s just stupid.
10. Har du varit sjuk eller skadat dig? Nope. Think I escaped the flu.
11. Bästa köpet? All my Michael-stuff.
12. Vad spenderade du mest pengar på? I didn´t really spend a lot of money this year. But what I spent it on.. was probably Michael stuff and clothes.
13. Gjorde någonting dig riktigt glad? Michael. Dancing. This Is It.
14. Vilka sånger kommer alltid att påminna dig om 2009? All Michael´s and Jacksons´ songs. Of course. Songs that I dedicated to Michael. Diana Ross & The Supremes - Ain´t no mountain high enough (could keep me from you).
15. Var du gladare eller ledsnare i år jämfört med tidigare år? Happier, definitely. Despite losing two much loved people.
16. Vad önskar du att du gjort mer? Hm.. Hard question. Wish I would´ve met my grandmother more before that thing. Wish I would´ve gone to North Carolwood Drive 100 to grab Michael and save him from the doctor.
17. Vad önskar du att du gjort mindre? Been reckless.
18. Hur tillbringar du julen? With my family and friends.
19. Blev du kär i år? Ohhhhh yes! More in love than ever.
20. Favoritprogram på TV? Scrubs! Definitely. That ´70s Show as well, though it´s not that funny. Got the Scrubs-box for b-day :)
21. Bästa boken du läste i år? Wish I could say Moonwalk but I can´t because I´m probably getting it on Saturday.. So I haven´t read it yet. But the best book.. Harry Potter. For the seventh time. Alice´s Adventures In Wonderland, Robin Hood, Oliver Twist.
22. Största musikaliska upptäckten? Michael Jackson :)  Though it wasn´t really a discovery.. Because I´ve been obsessed with his music before, but I really discovered Michael this year.
24. Något du önskade dig och fick när du fyllde år? I got the nicest birthday, really.
25. Något du önskade dig men inte fick? I´m not a person to wish for material things. Since mom wants a list, I write down the things that I really want, really bad. Things that if I don´t get them, I go out and buy them myself. I never write down things I really, really, really want. So my list isn´t that long. This year it contained mostly of Michael.
26. Vad gjorde du på din födelsedag 2009? Ate cake with family, opened presents, watched Scrubs.. That´s pretty much it :P
27. Finns det någonting som skulle gjort ditt år ännu bättre? Well, again, less mourning. If I hadn´t lost anyone.
28. Hur skulle du beskriva din stil år 2009? Oh wow.. Um. How do I describe it.. I mostly had like.. Okay, let´s start with hair. I mostly had my own hair (obviously hehe) but in braids when I slept so it wasn´t as big and afro-ish as it is by nature. I dyed the underhair dark brown. Now I go by my own afro. Clothes.. Well. Think Lisa Marie Presley, Janet Jackson, La Toya Jackson (during like the ´70s or something), Michael Jackson.. Ah, I suck at this. Goodbye, question.
29. Vad fick dig att må bra? The dancing classes, Michael, my family and friends, performing..
30. Vilken kändis var du mest sugen på? Michael Jackson of course haha. Stupid question.
31. Vem saknade du? During six months of it I missed Michael. During twenty days of it I missed my grandmother.
32. De bästa nya människorna du träffade? The most great person ever, I never met.. Michael. I met Johanna. My awesome new class. I met a lot of nice people. But I´d say Michael and Johanna.
33. Vad ser du fram emot? Right now, as 2009 isn´t over yet, being the 30th of December.. I look forward to New Year´s. I look forward to 2010 because it´ll be my year. I look forward to 2010 because it´s the year of the Jacksons. Austin has a lot to offer, he says. Jermaine, Jackie, Marlon and Tito also say they got a lot for the world. I can´t wait for it!
I look forward to see whether the rumour of the death hoax of Michael Jackson turns out to be true during 2010.. I look forward to the journeys I´ll make during 2010. Hopefully Edinburgh again. I look forward to all the performances I´ll be performing.

I just came to think of how hard it must´ve been for Elizabeth Taylor to celebrate Christmas without Michael.. not to mention Prince, Paris and Blanket..
I just have to tell you.. my dear friend Nessa in the USA was watching ET (American channel for those of you who didn´t already know).. When all of a sudden, Prince came up and answered the question of how he´s gonna spend New Year´s. Guess what he answered? "I´m gonna celebrate it with my dad and family". Nessa swears he said so! Could be a spiritual thing though, Prince perhaps means dad will be with them in their hearts, looking down at them from Neverland. I sure hope he meant concretely though!
Though, I do think it sounds weird that Prince Jackson was on tv answering a question..

These kinds of stuff just make me so darn mad! One thing you should know about me; I have no tolerance whatsoever with people who think they can say anything about anyone, without that person having done something really bad. You all probably already know people talked so much bullshit behind Michael´s back like you can´t imagine. These filthy lies people came up with, that were probably in the beginning only supposed to be a thing to make a story more interesting, but then they realized the lies were gonna get ´em money, leaked to the press that published them as the white truth.
The press along with complete morons like the Chandler-family, Martin Bashir, Diane Sawyer, I hate to say this because I believe her explaining about her ex-husband brainwashing her, but unfortunately there are people who don´t, but even his own sister, La Toya, contributed. Sometimes even the police. They made Michael´s life a hell. A hell.

But what I hate most about these people (I don´t hate La Toya, I´m leaving her out of this, I love La Toya), is not the fact that they spread such horrible lies about Michael. What I hate the most about these asses, is the fact that they didn´t confess. Until Michael died.
Evan Chandler confessed. Michael never did anything to that kid. Not to any kid. Never ever. He´d rather slit his throat wide open. He´d jump off the balcony right off the bat if someone told him all the children were gone. That´s what he said. And I believe him. He loves children. But not in the way people seem to expect.
Now Bashir has confessed. You´ll find the interview at the bottom of this post.
I can´t help but to feel (a very little) compassion with him, because of the kind words he says of Michael. But I won´t let myself get tricked by this big ass - how could we ever trust him again? We couldn´t. We shouldn´t. That would be betraying Michael. Because what Bashir did to him.. is just not forgiveable. I forgive very easily, way too easily. But not this time.

told me that you´re doin´ wrong. word out shockin´ all alone. cryin´ wolf ain´t like a man. throwin´ rocks to hide your hands.
you ain´t done enough for me, you ain´t done enough for me. you are disgustin´ me. you´re aimin´ just for me, you are disgustin´ me. just want your cut from me, but too bad, too bad.
look who just walked in the place, dead and stuffy in the face. look who´s standin´ if you please, though you tried to bring me to my knees.
too bad, too bad about it. why don´t you scream and shout it? too bad, too bad about it. why don´t you just scream and shout it?
hell all up in Hollywood. sayin´ that you got it good. creepin´ from a dusty hole. tales of what somebody told.
what do you want from me? what do you want from me? tired of you haunting me. you´re aiming just for me, you are disgustin´ me. you got blood lust for me, but too bad, too bad.
look who got slapped in the face. it´s dead and stuffy in the place. I´m right back where I wanna be, I´m standin´ though you´re kickin´ me.
too bad, too bad about it. why don´t you scream and shout it? too bad, too bad about it. why don´t you just scream and shout it?
life´s about a dream. I´m really undefeated when MJ is on my team, theme. reality brings forth realizm. it´s the man of steel organizm, twizm. not from the prizm, take charge like manilla. nine five shaq represent with the Thrilla. grab my crotch, twist my knee, then I´m through.
Mike´s bad, I´m bad. who are you?
too bad, too bad about it. why don´t you scream and shout it? too bad, too bad about it. why don´t you just scream and shout it?

text: Michael Jackson - 2 Bad lyrics

Sorry, I just couldn´t stop adding pictures! :D

I´m so excited! For my awesome b-day I got a make-over of my room! Tomorrow we´re going to IKEA to get all the stuff I want. One of the walls is going to be completely covered in mirrors, so I get my own "dancestudio". I´ll get loads of shelves to put my CDs and books in. The remaining three walls will be covered in MJ-paintings and posters. I´m also considering painting his logo (picture) on one of the walls! I really hope mom will let me do that.

Plus, I´ve got so much money right now (don´t wanna brag or anything, but I haven´t spent money on almost anything since June (that dreadful month), and having gotten about 2000 crowns a month.. it´s been piling up. Plus, I got money for xmas and I got 1000 crowns today, so I got a little to spend), I´m gonna make a huge order on CDon ;) Getting a CD shelf is a good reason to buy loads of CDs, because the ones I already have won´t take up even a fifth of the space.

The logo I want to be painted on my wall forEVER

Goodmorning, schmucks!
I won´t be updating again until tonight, I think. It´s my b-day and I´m celebrating it with my family.
Have a nice day :D

Since it is my birthday.. let´s have a Mike-marathon :D

I would like to upload a thousand more but there´s not time! I have a date to catch! <-- Alice in Wonderland